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I will never be ready for the next stage

As I looked at the positive pregnancy test, my heart dropped. I’m not ready. As I inched closer to my due date, the fear of the unknown took my breath away. I’m not ready. As I looked into my newborn’s eyes, my heart cracked open. I’m not ready. As we dealt with our first sleepless…
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Motherhood is messy

I mean, laughable levels of mess sometimes. (Like when my oldest covered her full body in my lipstick when I wasn’t looking.) When we were in the throes of newborn life, I was covered in spit up 24/7. My hair was dirty (wait—that hasn’t changed), the diapers were dirty, and our clothes were dirty. Toddlerhood…
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There are tiny humans up in my grill at all times

If I decide to take a shower, it’s safe to assume that the *very* moment the water starts running, one of my children will have to use the bathroom or will need to ask me 3,400 questions or will even feel called to hop right into the shower with me. If I sit on the…
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Motherhood is all about the unexpected

If there’s one thing I’ve learned about motherhood it is that the second you feel like you’re getting the hang of things… something big is going to shift. And the second you think you can’t handle the overwhelm anymore… you’re about to grow or change or get better—a big lesson is in the works. They…
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Let yourself see the way they see you

And when you’re breaking, Look at those little faces Look deep in their eyes And let yourself see the way they see you Your beauty + light Your compassion + empathy Your generosity + thoughtfulness Your fun spirit + creativity Your love + care To them, you are perfect It’s that simple You don’t have…
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Intimacy is…

Intimacy is sometimes sex—but a lot of times—it’s so many other things. It’s placing a cold washcloth over their head when they’re sick. It’s somehow knowing that they need ice cream tonight, and surprising them with their favorite flavor. It’s watching someone ugly cry—seriously, the ugliest of cries—but seeing their beauty through the sadness. It’s…
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Christmas sickness, no thank you

‘Twas the month that starts Christmas, 🎄 when all through the house… The germs started flowing, (but hopefully no louse!). The Motrin was stacked in the cabinet with care. In hopes that when needed most, our medicine stash wouldn’t be bare. The children were nestled, all snuggled up nice and tight… then *at least* one…
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Parenting requires courage

All of parenting requires faith. Not necessarily religion (although, for me it does include religion), but faith. In Brene Brown’s book I’m reading right now—The Gifts of Imperfection, she defines faith as, “A place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of…
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What will life be like in 20 years?

Last night as I was falling asleep, I pictured my husband and I in 20 years—wondering what our lives will look like. He’ll be 53, I’ll be 52. Our kids will be 25, 23 and 21. They will be adults who are figuring out their lives (or at least trying to). They will be in…
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We can do hard things

“We can do hard things” is something I’ve been saying lately. To help my kids understand, but as a reminder for me too. Sometimes the things that are worth the most in life are hard, and tedious. They take time, and patience. They take extra planning, and a lot of deep breaths. Like family vacations,…